|| The stars shone for me ** XiaoXin|| @ 10:15 PM
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i wouldnt cry for you, cause i will DIE for you.
Sunday, February 26, 2006
Sianz.......Wj Is Sick.......Problems Arise........Edmund Again.........I Really Sianz Of Having This Guy Troubling Me..........He Is Better Than Me...........Then....So What.........I Dunno......
Wj........Said Dun Need Me To Care.....Means She Rather Edmund To Care For Her Lor........Kaoz...........She Nv Even Called Me Today........I Freaking Pissed By The Things Happening Around Me.........Comparing Me Somemore.........With Another Guy.....So What I Am Not As Good...........
I Hate It !
Edmund.......Edmund......Edmund.......Just A Third Party To Me......A Person Who Is Affecting My Life, My Relationship......And Yet....She Is Not Doing Anything.........She Just Letting Him Do Whatever He Want........Everything She Said...Mostly About Him....I Dun Wanna Hear Anything More...........I Dunno What She Want..........From Last Time Till Now.......She Nv Give A Clear Response To Me Regarding Edmund.......I've Been Driving Thinking Too Much By Her........Making Me..Thinking Edmund Is Always Calling And Sms Her..When I Am Not With Her Or Chatting With Her.........I Going Crazy.....Cos...She Dunno How To Handle......She Just Dunno.........................yeah...I Am Not Good Enuff...........I Shall Go Isolate Myself......
I Dun Wanna Hear Anything About Edmund.......Get Lost !
I Am Just A Idiot.........!!! Happy ?
Take Care...Wj.....><
Yang*
|| The stars shone for me ** XiaoXin|| @ 10:50 PM
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i wouldnt cry for you, cause i will DIE for you.
Thursday, February 23, 2006
Today Is Thursday.....Having My Last UT Of This Semester Later....Kind Of Happy...But I Am Tired....Guess I Didn't Sleep Enuff......
7 More School Days...Before My Holiday.....But It Doesn't Mean I Can Slack...I Still Got Stuff To Do.........
I Am Broke Now...So...I Will be Fasting...HeHez...........Take Care Dear ! Hope You Got Your Silver...
Yang*
|| The stars shone for me ** XiaoXin|| @ 7:22 AM
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i wouldnt cry for you, cause i will DIE for you.
Wednesday, February 22, 2006
Today....My Module Got Lab Session...I Dunno About It....And...I Wore Slipper And Shorts To School.......So Diao....Unable To Attend The Lesson...So I Stayed In Class To Do My Own Things....However..I Still Stay To Attend The Third Meeting.....
Dunno What Time Dear Will Call Me.......Waiting For Her Call Now...
Yang*
|| The stars shone for me ** XiaoXin|| @ 2:11 PM
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i wouldnt cry for you, cause i will DIE for you.
Monday, February 20, 2006
Time Now Is 1:11 Pm.....Xiao Xin Cried Today....I Am Sorry To Make Her Cry........My Main Objective Is To Make Her Reflect On Her Mistakes...Let Her Realise....Her Mistakes.....And Make Changes To Her Altitude And The Way She Do Things.......
My Words Maybe Too Harsh.........But......My Intention Is Good...I Know......But I Dun Want Such Thing To Happen Again.........I Know...Soon...I Will Become A Heartless Guy If It Con't..........
Yang*
|| The stars shone for me ** XiaoXin|| @ 1:11 PM
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i wouldnt cry for you, cause i will DIE for you.
Thursday, February 16, 2006
Today Is Kind Of A Bad Day...Why Neh???
Cos..Morning I Overslept....She Got Called Me.....But...Dunno Why..Head So Heavy Then....Doze Off.....I Really Dun Meant It....Sorry.....It Was Intentionally...
School Was Alright.....Just Feel Tired....
After School, Met Up With Her......She Was Late...But Nvm....Shouldn't Say Anything About The Lateness.....Dun Wanna Quarrel With Her.....Just Only Saw She And Three Other Friends...Walking Towards Mrt Station......
Today...Me In A Smiling Mood.....But.......She...Raised About The Topic That I Overslept...I Know It Is Wrong Of Me........Dun Have Much To Explain....Doze Off Got What Reasons To Say De........Sorry........I Spoiled Her Day.....I Am So Bad.....
I Feel Being Threatened......Cos...She Mentioned About Saying ByeBye To Edmund.......If I Did Not Overslept Today......But To Me...It Seem...........There Is Something Going On Between Them....Otherwise...Why Would She Say ByeBye......To Her Best Friend.........She Should Have Say ByeBye Long Ago.....But She Dragged Until Now.....Making Me And Her To Suffer......She Still Dunno What's Wrong.........
No Chemistry Le......She Been So Fierce These Days....Want To Treat Her Good....But........The Way She Treat Me...Is Like I Am Not Her Boyfriend....She Push Me Away...Reject Me.....Nv Make it Clear..To ppls Who Want To Woo Her........................Haiz.......I Already Damn Sad..Until......Can Laugh When I Sad.....Cos..I Feel Numb.....I Dunno.........
Yang* Sign...
|| The stars shone for me ** XiaoXin|| @ 7:23 PM
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i wouldnt cry for you, cause i will DIE for you.
Wednesday, February 15, 2006
Today....Is A Fine Day...Except The Lesson Is Abit Boring......Dunno..Why........Time Now is 1:27 Pm....I Am Having My Lunch In Class....Chicken-Cutlet Hor Fun.........
Third Meeting Is At 2 Pm.......Soon Le.........
Dun Wanna Say Anything...Just Hope She Dun Make Me Angry........
Yang*
|| The stars shone for me ** XiaoXin|| @ 1:24 PM
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i wouldnt cry for you, cause i will DIE for you.
Tuesday, February 14, 2006
Valentine's Day....
I Received A Wallet.....A Billabong Wallet....This Is The First Time I Received A Billabong Gift...And Is My First Possession Of Billabong Item.....Yesterday Is Also My First Time To Buy A Billabong Gift For Someone........It Is The Second Most Expensive Item For Her......The Most Expensive Thing I Bought For Her is The Rings.......With Engraving "WJ & YY"......=)
Hope She Really Love My Gifts More Than Other People's One.......Hahax......Have A Nice Day...Dear......
Yang*
|| The stars shone for me ** XiaoXin|| @ 2:06 PM
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i wouldnt cry for you, cause i will DIE for you.
Monday, February 13, 2006
What Should I Say....???
Just Called Dear....She Is Sleeping.....I Feel Bad Waking Her Up......But Since I Already Wake Her Up........I Just Chat Abit With Her.......I Can Feel She Dun Feel Interested To Talk To Me.......I Already Can Sense Crying In My Heart.......I Am Damn Sad.......Especially....She Thought It Is Edmund That Called Me........She Took Me As Edmund.....She Really Did........I Dunno....How Long I Can Take Such Hurting........I Dunno When She Can Treat Me Better.......I Dunno If This Relationship Can Hold On How Long....I Just Wish.....She Is Still With Me.........I Also Can Sense Her Heart Is Not With Me...........I Felt I Am Only Having A One-Sided Love........Which Is Me Loving Her....Where She Dun.........Why Are Our Relationship Restricted To Weekend Only......Am I Not Her Boyfriend During Weekdays ???
Ok....Enough Of The Unhappiness.....
Before I Called Her.....I Went To Lot 1 To Buy Valentine's Day Gift For Dear........I Went With Weibin......Weibin Also Want To Buy Things For Si Yi.........I Am Glad I Finally Bought A Shirt For Dear And Also Bought A Smaller Version Of Mie Mie......HeHe....Hope She Will Love Them.........I Really Wanna Treat Her Good......But Also Hope She Treat Me Better.........If She Really Dun Love Me........I Rather Her To Leave Me......And Never Find Me Again........Cos..Maybe I Took This Relationship Too Seriously....I Put In Too Much Of My Feeling........I Just Hope To Treat Her The Best I Can.......
I Am At Loss...I Dunno Wat I Can Do....To Make Dear Realise...That....I Am Really Hurt By What She Done.......I Also Dunno Wat I Can Do To Make Her Change The Way She Treat Me.......I Noe I Am In Wrong....I Noe.....Everything Could Be Or Must Be My Fault......To Let Things Come To This Stage....But I Also Noe.....I Will Regret.....If I Never Attempt To Save This Relationship.....But I Noe....If I Try.......There Might Be A Chance To Make Her Come Back To Me......I Will Be Contended & Noe I Try My Best........In The End........Everything Might End Up.......With What I Dun Want.....And .....Cry As Much As I Like......
I Dun Used To Cry......I Cry Of Cos...When I Am Hurt......Who Say Guys Cannot Cry.....I Did..........I Did Cry Becos Of Her...Becos..Of This Relationship.....I Also Want To Make This Relationship Forever...Where She Will Accompany Me Through Poly....Through NS....And Even Live Together........I Am Willing To Sacriface Alot Of Things For Her.....I Can Dun Eat...Dun Drink...Dun Sleep..Becos..Of Her...I......I Even Can Spent Every Single Cents On Her....Just To Make Her Happy.......All I Hope Is She Is Treating Me Whole-Heartedly........Love Me Truely........Faithfully.........
Maybe You All Will Realise....My Blog & Posts Is All About Her Since The Day I Blog..........I Been Doing It For Quite A Long Time........Cos..I Care....& Wanna Voice Out.......At Least I Hope She Can Understand Through My Blog....I Dunno If She Will View It Anot....I Dunno If She Cares About This Relationship Anot.....I Hope She Can Proves To Me....She Cares.....She Love Me.....She Wanna Be With Me.....She Wanna Save This Relationship Too........I Am Still Waiting....I Am.......................................................I Am Really Still Waiting......She Been Missing...Or Getting Lost....For A Long Time......I Hope My Xiao Xin Can Come Back To Me..........I Am Such A Failure...Why ???....................Want To Talk To Her Also So Difficult.............
Edmund........Edmund...........Edmund........He Is Making My Life Messy......He Is Making My Relationship Messy......He Is Driving Me Crazy............Maybe I Am Not Suited For Relationship Because Of The Fact...I Cannot Stand My Girlfriend...Kept Talking About A Guy..........Even Say His Name When She Called Me.....Even Take Me As Edmund When I Called Her...........Really Feel Irritated With Edmund........Dear.....Dear......Take It As I Beg You.....Can You Stop What You Doing Now...........Can You At Least Care About Me.......Pay Attention To Me......And Only Treat Me With Special Treatment...........Am I Really Wrong About You ???
I Am Feeling Very Miserable...........Dear...You Noe That.........It Is Not I Dun Want This Relationship.....But.....It Need Two Hands To Clap.........I Noe The Problem Might Lies With Me.....But Can You Dun Rake Up The Past........??? Can You...................Actions Speak Louder Than Words............................................................................................................................................................................................................................Please Find Your Way Back..........
Anyway.....Happy Valentine Day !!! Love You Dear.........Wo Ai Ni Ai Dao Si.......I Already Feel Like Dying...........
Broken-Hearted Yang*
|| The stars shone for me ** XiaoXin|| @ 11:12 PM
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i wouldnt cry for you, cause i will DIE for you.
Sunday, February 12, 2006
I Already Try To Give Myself And Her A Chance.....But It Doesn't Work Out.......
Everyday......She Will Surely.....Say Or Do Something That Hurt Me.....
Why Bother About So Much....When The Feeling Is There...........
I Dun Understand...........Does It Makes She Feel Better Or Feel Great When She Said Those Things..........
She Nv Cherish Me...........Till Now....After The Chance Given.....She Still Wants To Make Life Difficult For Me.........Why ???!!!
Why My Life & Relationship Must Be Like This.............I Just Ask For A Understanding Girlfriend..................Haiz......
Dissapointment......Depressment...........She Just Not Mature............If I Scold Her....She Will Think...I Unreasonable............I Wanted Her So Much Back......But It Seem Impossible.........Her Heart Fly Elsewhere......If She Love Me.....She Won't Say Those Thing........If She Love Me........She Won't Want To Hurt Me........
I Just Hope For A Glimph Of Chance......Again........Dream Shattered.........Even I Dun Want Such Relationship Le.........She Changed........She Got Influenced By Friends.......She Will Regret........I Did My Best Accept Some Of Thing Unlogical Thing She Asked For Liao.............
I Won't Find Her.......I Won't..........I Scare I Will Sink Deeper.........I Am Not Her Type Anyway..........It Might Not Be Too Late If I Make A Comeback.........I Been So Silly To Believe She Will Change For The Better............Instead She Got Worse And Worse...........
Time Now Is 2:30 Pm.......Later...I Need To Play Basketball To Distract Myself From The Problems....................I Cannot Be Like Her....If I Am As Immature As Her.......Sure Die One..........kk.........Dun Say Le............
Yang* (Angry Words Tend Not To Be The True Of What I Wants)
|| The stars shone for me ** XiaoXin|| @ 2:22 PM
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i wouldnt cry for you, cause i will DIE for you.
Friday, February 10, 2006
Time Now Is 11:40pm......One More Day To 11 / 2 /2006.....It Will Be 1 Yr & 8 Months Le.......I Am Happy...Wang Jue's Friend Do Speak Up For Me........I Really Wanna Ask Her........If It Is Worth To Give Up Me Becos Of Him..........If It Is That Case.......I Also Dunno......
I Been Trying Hard Not To Think About Our Matters...I Study In School....Discuss School Work With Friends....Play Games With Friends.....These Are The Things That Can Distract Me.........
Now The Problems Came Back To Me....I Cannot Avoid........If She Doesn't Help Herself.....What Can Be Done..........Now The Case Is......"Ren Zai...Xin Bu Zai".....Physically With Me...But Not The Heart......Haiz......
I Do Love Her Alot.....My Friends Are Told Me....To Break.....But I Cannot......I Still Wanna Give Her And Me A Chance........I Still Believe She Will Change For The Better.....But I Guess Too Late......She Returned Me The Ring..I Gave To Her....
I Think I Will Not Accept It Back....I Will Give Back To Her........
Yang*
|| The stars shone for me ** XiaoXin|| @ 11:41 PM
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i wouldnt cry for you, cause i will DIE for you.
This Relationship Is A Hopeless Case.......
Dunno What's Wrong With Me & Her.......
She Just Likes Go Bother For Other Guys Except Me........
She Sound Great Ar.........So Caring For Her Friends............
Hope She Dun End Up Like Dawn..........Who Got Hurt In The End..........
I Dun Feed The Need Of Me To Be Around........Cos...She Only Need Her Friends & MP3 Around..........
I Already Feel Numb About What Is Happening So Far............Scold Also No Use.......Cos...She Will Do Back The Same Thing.....What A Great Friend She Is.........Too Bad....She Is A Lousy Girlfriend.....Who Dun Care About Her Boyfriend.........Even When She Called Me.......It Is Also About Not Asking How Well Am I Today? Did I Have My Meals Regularly? Am I Happy Today? Or Lastly...What Time Can You Go Home?
I Dun Sense Her Care & Concern........Bet......Everything Have Shift To Another Guy Called Edmund.......Since His Importantance Overwhelmed Mine.........I Shall Not Stay.........I Am Not Good Enuff For Her...........
FUCK..........Everyday She Surely Bring Me Another Guy's Problem..........She Dun Even Realise....What She Been Doing Of Cos...Bring Other People's Rumours.......So I Suppose She Deserved It For Making Other People To Misunderstood......Even I Also Can Be Angry......I Doubt Her Now........
I Won't Be Surprised She Will Leave Me Because Of Edmund......Edmund Is A Cool Guy. He Care So Much About Wang Jue......He Got So Much To Talk To Wang Jue.......He Can Offer What Wang Jue Want...........He Can Help Wang Jue Gain Popularity In School.......He Can Make Wang Jue's Life In RV Fantastic.....Doesn't It Sound Cool Like A GOD ??? He Even Can Help With Her Homework........
I Won't Be Surprised If Some Of Her Friends Left Her In The End..........I Won't Explain Such Phenomenon..........
I Angry Also No Use Right.........She Will Still Do It...........Meet Edmund For School......Go Home Together With Edmund...........My Troubles Are Always There........But I Know One Thing........Basketball, Computer Games And FYP....Can Help Me Distracted Away From All This Craps.......
Sux ! I Hope She Dun Give PPls An Impression Of A "B****" In School.........She Been In So Good Term With Those Guys..........Rumours Like She & Her Edmund.....She & Her Lai Seng.....She & Her Jun Jie.............Wah.....3 Guys Sia.........Greedy......Not Good Wor......
She Also Nv Go Buy The Swimming Sleeping Clothes For The Swimming Lesson.........Even Want To Borrow From Edmund.......KNN........Such Girlfriend Exist In The World.........
Dunno Why Early In The Morning......She Do That To Me..........Really Dun Feel Like Going To School........But Not Her Problem Liao.....Her Edmund's Problem Is More Important..........Dun Feel Like Talking To Her............I Rather Stay In School Longer...........Then Come Home About 7 or 8 Pm....Then Go Sleep.....Days Pass Like That......Even No Time For Me To Be Trouble............Alarice....Asked Me Go Out A Few Times.....But I Rejected All Her Asking & Begging.........Cos..I Felt Inappropiate If I Go Out With Other Gals..........But Now.......Wang Jue........Also Doing It..........Maybe I Shouldn't Restrict Myself.............All Becos Of One Gal.........Who Make My Life Sux.......Who Dun Care Me...........
Dun Worry.....I Nv Regret.......I Just Pinned Hopes On Her......This Time Round.....My Dream Is Awaken..........Hopes Are Shattered......Sick Of It Le.........
Sorry For Being A Lousy & Bad Boyfriend....Who Dun Have The Understanding.............But I Just Can't Accept...A Girlfriend Who Treat Other Guys.....Better Than Her Guy........It Completely Bullshit...if She Told Me She Loves Me...........Go On.....Find Your Happiness Elsewhere.............................End Of Story.......
Yang*
|| The stars shone for me ** XiaoXin|| @ 5:30 AM
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i wouldnt cry for you, cause i will DIE for you.
Thursday, February 09, 2006
Today....I Will Be Having UT4......Last UT For Medical Technology........
Saw Xiao Xin Today..Quite To See Her Girlish...HeHe....Sit Until So Nice.....Love Her Alot........But There Are Still Room For Improvement......Ask Her Eat More Vegetable.....She Seem To Never Listen...Evil Girl......Dun Force Me To Force Vegetable Into Her Mouth......HaHax....She Having Swimming Lesson.......Dun Get Cold Hor.....
If Can....I Go Buy Her Sleeping Clothes For Swimming....But Where To Buy ? I Dunno Leh.....Bu Zhi Dao........
OKOK>.......I Got To Study Now.......LoL.....Dear Dear Said I Not Shuai....Hurt Me Lo......KeKe...
Yang*
|| The stars shone for me ** XiaoXin|| @ 7:29 AM
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i wouldnt cry for you, cause i will DIE for you.
Wednesday, February 08, 2006
Time Now Is 2:59 Pm.......I Guessed What I Said In The Morning Is Rather Unfair Or "Guo Fen" To Dear Dear.....
But I Dun Deny I Feel Very Sick Of What Is Happening Around.......I Wanna Be Cheerful.......I Mean..Who Doesn't Want To Be Happy Right.....Dear Always Been Cheerful....But I Hope She Dun Strayed.....Cos....She Seem To Be Getting Stray.......Learning Bad Stuffs In School......
Hope She Know What Is Good & Bad For Her...........Lesson End Early Today......End At 3:05 Pm.........Tml.....I Got A UT4 For Medical Technology.....Must Study Liao.......
One Of My Fac Saw Me Been Always Unhappy In School......He Told Me Feel Free To Approach Him....If I Got Any Problem....He Even Told Me Not To Let Relationship Affect Studies.....Of Cos..I Noe....But Emotional-Wise....Quite Hard To Forget..........This Fac...Just Got Married........Fac = Facilitater = My Teacher, Caleb Yam..
I Am Trying To Get The FYP About High Tech Mushroom.......It Will Be A Good Things If I Got It.....And If I Can Get It........I Need To Fork Out Time For It.............Hope If There Is Such Chance For Me..........
Dear Dear....Happy Can Le......I Hope I Can Dun Get Angry Or Unhappy Over Her.........Closed One Eye.....Or Just Try To Heck-Care...Her Friend......Pretend...Nth Is Wrong...
Yang*
|| The stars shone for me ** XiaoXin|| @ 2:59 PM
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i wouldnt cry for you, cause i will DIE for you.
I Hated Her This Morning........She Went School Early I Guessed Is Most Probably Because Of Edmund.....Now I Really Get Used To This Guy........But....Glad In The Sense...Even When I Am Not Around, He Will Take Care Of Her..........
What Xiao Xin Needs Is Not Me But Rather Her MP3 & Her Friends.........I Know Strongly.....She Will Rather Choose Her Friends Than Me.........In Fact We Dun Have Much To Say...........And....In The End....I Change The Way I Think.....Let Her Go Out With Those Guys.......Until She Realise I Am Not Good Enuff For Her......And Will Leave Me.........Find Her True Happiness La.............Me Actually Wanted To Send Her To School Before I Took Mrt Back To Redhill......But Edmund.......Ermm...I Guess...She Will Be Meeting Edmund To School And Back Home.....So......I Decided....I Will Not Disturb Her Anymore............My Handphone Cannot Sms Out And Call Out Liao.....My Mum Nv Pay The Handphone Bills For Me...........Too Bad Lor......No One Can Find Me Now........I Rather Be Alone........
One Last Thing.....I Wanna Tell Wang Jue......I Am Not Good Enuff For You.........The Kind Of Guys You Like Is Not My Type..........Edmund Is Your Type.....Right ??? Shu Fang Told Me Before You Hated Guys Like Me.........Haiz........Even When I Am Not Around......You Will Not Be Lonely...Cos...You Got Your MP3 & Friends.......I Dun Sense The Need Of Me Anymore........I Rather Someone Who Appreciate My Stuffs And My Presense.........I Used To Giving My Breakfast To You.....But You Always Rejected......You Been In A Rush To Meet Your Edmund........And Forgotten About Me.....Even When I Seem To Be Angry....You Will Still Make Your Way To Meet Edmund.........Both Of Us Are Not Suited For One Another............That's All.............Wait Till One Day You Find Me Important.......Then Say Ba.......
Yang*
|| The stars shone for me ** XiaoXin|| @ 7:28 AM
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i wouldnt cry for you, cause i will DIE for you.
Sunday, February 05, 2006
Today Was A Sunday........
Yesterday Was A Saturday..........4 / 2 /2006..........It Was A Day Where Fate End......As Mentioned In The Beginning......I Am Going To Stop Blogging When Fate End.........It Is A Rule I Set For Myself...So I Am Going To Stick With It.....
It Was A Clean Break...........Just Hope She Nv Regret........
I Guess I Still Wanna Care So Much For Her............But Dun Worry......I Will Control My Emotions.........Let Her Be What She Is......And Find Her True Love............
It Is A Curiosity........Wondering How's Her Next Boyfriend Going To Be Like.........Hope He Loves Her More Than Me........Be There For Her...............
Wish Her All The Best......Best Wishes.......Good Luck.........Study Hard Hard.......
Jia Yo !!!.........Xiao Xin Rox.!
Yang*
|| The stars shone for me ** XiaoXin|| @ 11:03 AM
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i wouldnt cry for you, cause i will DIE for you.
Saturday, February 04, 2006
Hi Wang Jue.....
I Think You Already Realised Or Just Realised.....I Been A Moody Person Recently......How I Wish I Can Go Back To The One Who Is Happy-Go-Lucky & Carefree......
Maybe Relationship Will Make Someone Changed In Term Of Character.....
I Used To Be Happy.......Cos........I Met Someone I Loved & Also Likes To Watch Me Play Basketball..........
However, I Am Not That Fortunate To Be Like What They Always Said : "The First 3 Months Of Any Relationship Is Like Honeymoon." My First 3 Months......Was Quite A Torture To My Mind......My Soul......My Heart...........I Guess......Caryn Noe Why.......Erica Noe Why......And Perhaps..You Can Guess It Also.......
I Am Glad You No Longer Do That or Make That Same Mistakes Again Now........Cos....It Really Hurts Me..........
I Remember You Said B4.....Becos...You Are The Only Child Of The Family, Only Got PPls Care For You......But Not The Other Way Round.....So You Said....You Dunno How To Care For Someone...........But I Hope You Learnt That Soon.........Cos.....Actually Till Now........I Realised.....You Dunno How To Care For Someone.....Their Feeling.....Their Pride......
There Are Goods & Bads To Your Directness.........But Do Mind That Whatever You Said....Might Inflict Hurt To The Person.......Just That Maybe That Person Keep Quiet ......Doesn't Mean....He Is Not Hurt........
You Mentioned About Me Complaining..........I Dunno..If What I Did Is Counted As Complaining.........But If You Deem So...Then So Be It............Me Dun Mind....If You Gossip...But It Is A Fact I Dun Gossip........Cos....I Dunno Why...I Am Bored Not To Gossip ??? HaHax.......Me Dun Talk About My Friends Except Some Who You Know.....Like Shu Fang Or Mark......I Dun Think There Are Much To Talk About My School Friends....Cos..Really Nth To Say......My School Stuff....I Think I Also Nv Mentioned To You.....Cos..I Am Handling It Myself......I Am Glad You Actually Talk To Me About Your Friends & School Stuff...Which You Claimed These Stand Ninety Percentage Of Your Life.....Right ??? Hearing From Your Friends........Is Alright..........I Dun Mind......Forget What I Said Last Time.......Frankly Said....Your School Work....I Let You Handle Them.....Entirely Yourself.....Or You Think I Am Of Any Help ???
Sometimes I Feel Irritated Because I Felt....You Are Placing Me In The Same Status As Your Friends...........There Are Quite A Few Examples........
I Ask You Drink Water.....Because...As You Know.....You Seldom Drink Water.....Which Is Not Good......Which Is A Fact, Then You Will Said I Nag At You When I Am Saying For Your Good. You Said........At School Or Outside...Also Got "Someone" Nagging At You....Come Home...Also Must Hear Me Nagging.........I Can Tell You Now...This Strongly...Put Me In Dissatisfaction....I Hope You Can Tell Me Again...Who Am I To You........Comparing Your Friend To Me......Am I The Same To Them ? Does My Words Sound The Same As Them ? Where Does The Origin Of Concern Come From ?
I Am A Guy.......Of Cos...Naturally.......As Boyfriend......If "Someone" Knew You Have A Boyfriend And Yet Still Confess Likes You --> I Dunno What's Make Him Wanted To Tell You That........Of Cos I Will Be Bu Shuang And Develop A Strong Bias Against "That Someone". I Think It Sound Logical I Felt That Way..........I Dunno If You Heard Before...Why Nicholes And Weibin Fall Out.......Cos....There Are Times...When Azure & Nicholes Chatted Through Phone....And One Day....Nicholes Said He Likes Azure To Her......When Weibin Knew About It..........Same As Me........The First Reaction Is Very Displeased......If You Dun Believe Me.....You Can Ask Weibin If Such Thing Occur Before Or Anot........I Mean.....Regardless Of Friend Or Non-Friend...I Will Be Displeased.........
Somemore......"This Person" Is Treating You Far Too Good Only To You.....But Not Others.....And You Think It Is Normal And Accept It........Like Wat U Said To Me......Ppls Sit His Chair...He Will Chase Them.....But When You Sit.......He Diam Diam......Shut Up....Nv Say Anything.........Follow Up....Called You Everyday.......Sms You Everyday........In A Class....Got So Many Ppls...........Why He Dun Look For Others...But Only Come To You ??? Of Cos....Now U Will Also Argues That....Dun I Wanted You To Be Concern..........Of Course....yes.....I Do....Wanted See You To Be Concern....But Not This Kind..Of Likeness For You That Initiate The Care & Concern..........Where Got Best Friends......Good Until Said Good Night Before You Sleep......I Dun Believe...It Is All Crap..............I Not Going To Accept It..........I Can Tell You That..........It Is Either You Think For Your Boyfriend Or "Someone".................Bet...It Is Hard For Best Of Two World..........
Even............If....You Really Took Him As Best Friends...........There Is A Certain Margin Between........I Noe...You Will Again Argue.....That...You All Only Chatted On Phone........Nv Hug......Nv Kiss...And Blah Blah Blah........But.......I Might Be Thinking Different.....The Things He Do.........Is No Different To Me........Nowadays....I Hesitated To Call You.....Cos..I noe....."Someone" Will Accomplish My Task...........Even If I Said Anymore....You Will Said I Am Unreasonable............Cos.....You Just Nv Try To Understand........
Do You Noe......All These Makes Me Feel Like You Are Stepping On Two Boats.......Example....He Called Every Night.....To Said Gd Night To You....After He Hanged Up The Call, My Turn......To Said Gd Night......EveryDay........You Likes Received 2 GoodNights...From 2 Guys.......You Get Wat I Mean ??? I Felt Rather Pissed Off.......Not That I Jealous..U Can Get 2 Gd Night...But I Felt Unfair............
Your Friends.......Haiz.........I Noe...You Said They Likes Edmund......So They Also Know....This Guy Here.......Likes You....So They Been Trying To Matchmake...U 2 Together......Do You Think It Is Fair To Me When......They Actually Know You Already Got Me ??? Somemore...I Guess......You Are Always....Left With No Choice To Do What They Said.........
From A Confident /Cheerful Person I Am.....To An In-Confident / Sadist Guy......This Changes Dun Takes Place Over Night....It Occurs Over Times.......
Nowadays....I Dun Sense Care From You........I Just Ask For A Simple Request To Has Lunch With Me.....You Will Said....Very Sianz.........Always Heard You Mentioned About How Edmund And You Do In School......U Always Mentioned Until So Happy.....
I Really Felt I Am A Failure.....Cos..I Cannot Make You Not Sianz.....Maybe That Also The Reason Why I Become An Unconfident Person....I Guess...I Seldom Heard Encourage From You But Probably The Things You Said Are Trying To Hint I Am Useless.............Making Me Inferior.........
Yang*
|| The stars shone for me ** XiaoXin|| @ 8:18 AM
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i wouldnt cry for you, cause i will DIE for you.
Friday, February 03, 2006
I Would Rather Do Things That Will Make Me Happy Nowadays.......And Try To Avoid Things That Make Me Unhappy..............
As You Can See....I Am Quite A Emotional Guy..........YaYa.....Pros & Cons......Easily Hurt ? HaHax.........Just Ate A Big Curry Puff In School....Cos..Did Not Have Breakfast With Xiao Xin...........She Dun Wanna Eat.....So I Dun Eat Also........
Dunno......I've Been Falling Deeper........I Wonder If Her Love For Me Had Increase, Decrease Or Remains.......I Also Dunno Who Can Save Me......And Lend A Helping Hand To Stop Me From Falling.........Perhaps...All The While...I Am Putting Too Much Hope Or Zhi Zhuo Duo Qing.......
Let's Solve My Friends, Shu Fang & Mark 's Problem......Hope They Went Out Tonight & Solve Everything.......Back Again To Normal...Happily.....
For Me Leh....Ermm.......Finished My Yr 2..........en....That's It.........
Yang*
|| The stars shone for me ** XiaoXin|| @ 7:30 AM
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i wouldnt cry for you, cause i will DIE for you.
Thursday, February 02, 2006
Mark Chee & Shu Fang....Having Abit Of Problem..........They Are Talking About Breakup Now.........It Is Such A Pity.....As They Are Going 1 Year Soon.......
Now...What I Can Do Is To Try To Counsel Them...And Show Them Support And Advices......Cos.....I Dun Want To See Them Regret..........
I Am Sick Recently.....Vomit 6 Times.........No Appetite To Eat.......
Also Dun Dare To See Dear's Blog.....Cos..I Dun Wanna See Things That Makes Me Sad & Unhappy...............
I Dunno.............She Only Talk Mostly About How Edmund Treat Her.......How Good Is Edmund...How Caring Is Edmund.....To Put It Simple......Edmund Everyday.....
Now...She Also Said I Unreasonable........Maybe She Really Feel I Am Inferior Compare To Edmund................
I Want Go School...She Will Said I Very Fake......I Play Abit Of Basketball To Sweat....She Also Said I Am Fake.......It Is Like Dun Trust..I Am Feeling Unwell..........No Encouragement ???
See How Shu Fang & Mark Undergoes Now....I Dun Feel Better Than Them..........Dear....Said She Is Also Similar To Mark.........Haiz......Friends Are More Important To Them.........What Should Me And Shu Fang Do ???
Yang*
|| The stars shone for me ** XiaoXin|| @ 9:29 PM
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i wouldnt cry for you, cause i will DIE for you.
Wednesday, February 01, 2006
LoL......Dunno Why I Came School.....Today Got No School......Blur Me.....I Did Not Check.....Sian 1/2...............Aiyo......Why Like That Leh......If I Know....I Will Sleep More.....
Dear.....Start School Liao....Hope She Dun Make Me Sad Again.....
Yang*
|| The stars shone for me ** XiaoXin|| @ 7:51 AM
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i wouldnt cry for you, cause i will DIE for you.